The only reason I am able to write about it, this time around is because I came to terms with it all, this same day last year. I just stayed in my room asking questions that came to mind. The main question one was WHY?
Why, would he want to tear our family apart?
Why, should I forgive this man?
Why, would he have done such things to his daughter?
Why, should I forgive such a dad?
Why, would he steal our family’s money,that I would go out and beg for?
Why, should I forgive such a selfish man?
Why, would he want to become a dad is he loved his bottle more than filling mine?
Why, should I have to forgive him?
Why, would he manipulate a young child into doing things she didn’t want to?
Why, should I forgive this scumbag?
Why, would he want to end my life, if I was his precious little girl?
Why, would he be the one to not receive justice for all he has done?
Why, should I forgive his doings?
Why, should I have to forgive his hateful heart?
Why, would he hurt the one he was suppose to protect?
Why, should I forgive him?
These were a few that ran through my head that day, but this last one is the one that took me awhile to move forward from…
Why, didn’t he apologize for what he did….when I went to Brasil to find him?
Why, should I have to forgive my father, if he’s not even sorry?
WHY I forgive…
I forgive… because l need peace.
I forgive…because I deserve a better life.
I forgive…because I learned to be nothing like him.
I forgive…because I have the power to choose what is good.
I forgive…because God’s love can not have hatred.
I forgive…because I there is more to love in life.
I forgive…because God is the judge.
I forgive…because I am still here.
I know that we go through life, holding many grudges.
But think about it… is holding that grudge taking you places?
Is that grudge, letting your heart live freely, love freely and be completely happy?
What has been holding you back from owning your peace of mind?